“…I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. “
-Robert Frost (“The Road Not Taken”)
This has always been on my favorite poems to read. This one poem has many meanings depending on how the individual mind may perceive it. And this poem didn’t dawn on me until I came to the reality of driving and being visually impaired. Even though I am still able to operate a vehicle, driving has been a very different journey. I loved driving because of the simple fact that you could get away from the world at times and be in your own little world. The thrill of getting away on a joy ride on the open road. But then again, driving has it has its pros and cons.
I have been driving for about 7 years and some may say that it not a long time. But it seems like a lifetime for me. I have always be a fan of driving. I remember the first time I was able to drive alone. I cruised on that open road like I was in a new found world. I always hoped to have this feeling as the years went by. And that has seemed to changed drastically but, I am guessing that is what comes with the power of being able to operate a vehicle.
Lately, I have been less of a fan when it comes to driving because of my vision especially during the evening hours. Once the sun goes down and I am on my way to my destination, It seems like my eyes are playing tricks on me. I have to work a little harder to see any type of signage and the cars around me. Most important, the direction that I am going. I try my hardest to make this work, so landmarks and memory have become my favorite tools while driving. Which is really an enormous help.
Now, I wonder how many people who started their journey with vision loss had a similar experience. And what did they do to overcome the fear of driving in evening or driving in general. Because the cause of my vision loss is still a mystery and I do not know where It will go from here or even what it will be like on a day to day basis. I think I will enjoy the opportunity that I still have to drive wherever I can go. But I will dearly miss driving, when it is taken away from me, which I am praying does not happen anytime soon.
Maybe there are ways to overcome the fear of driving. But driving in the evening has made me feel like I have lost my “self-confidence and self-control”. I have yet to find a way to overcome this fear and I am hoping it gets better with time.